About 3 years ago life was good. I had just finished seminary, I was working at a great church, in the position I had wanted, and my family was happy and growing. It seems every time I get comfortable God wants to make me uncomfortable. I can’t tell you the exact day this started, but God began pressing a statement into my heart which eventually consumed ALL my thinking….
“I have something greater planned for you!”
OVER and OVER and OVER and OVER that statement nagged and drove me crazy!!! I didn’t want to answer it or even acknowledge it. Finally, I broke.
REALLY GOD? NOW? I have worked so hard to get to the place that I thought YOU wanted me to be.
So I responded like I normally do…
- I said to myself…You are crazy go to bed, that wasn’t God it was your imagination
- I tried to preoccupy my time (stay busy) wishing it would go away
- Tried to manually open other doors of opportunity
- Got mad, resented, refocused, and made excuses
- Finally, I surrendered to it!
After I surrendered to the fact that God had a bigger plan for me I still was not sure what it was. I began to pray and simply say “Whatever it is, I’m willing”. Months and months went by without a response only the same leading from the Holy Spirit “I have something greater planned for you!” I began to get frustrated and depressed. At my lowest point I heard the loudest shout from God.
“I want the rest of your life!”
I realized at that point I had not been ready to hear from the Holy Spirit. I had to be completly desperate and without selfish desires and personal gain. So I simply began to pray the prayer I continue to submit to this day.
“I’m in show me what’s next.”
God then spoke louder than ever before. He revealed a love for my hometown and a passion to reach the lost in it that I had never had before. I began to see countless people in my community that didn’t know Christ. My passion to preach and proclaim His love tripled over night. A desire to see lives completely turned upside down by Jesus was the only thing that really made sense.
At that point God revealed a vision in me which had never happened before. Through of a life of servitude, 15 years of ministry, and countless lives touched He had never reveled this clear of a plan and vision to me. I felt tiny, overwhelmed, unqualified, incompetent, and not gifted. It felt impossible, but I knew it was going to happen!
God had called me to plant a church in my hometown!